Want and Need, Want VS Need

No, not that big O. The Shel Silverstein variety.

http://osorhan.com/bigo/

So, it was posed to me, what am I? The missing piece? The O? Some version of the O missing pieces? Ha ha ha...

Doc says I'm the missing piece meeting the Big O for the first time...completely incapable of understanding someone who wouldn't want or need anything from me.

And I asked, "Do you believe there is a difference between happiness and joy?". And that was thrown right back at me. Of course I do! I think happiness occurs at intermittent times that cause laughter and smiles. To me, joy is more of a constant state. That no matter how devastating an event, one who is joyful will not be dragged down, will be capable of seeing the ironic comedy involved therein. I think you feel happy. I think you experience joy.

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I just looked up on my cubicle wall. The calendar is on April. It's almost June. I missed the entire month of May 2009.

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The Cincinnati Fringe Festival started last night. I've been invited to tag along with a friend to venture out and see a few shows. http://www.cincyfringe.com/shows.html
So far, Call Me, Incredulity and The Secrets Project interest me most...but there are lots I'd see.

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On the training front, I swam on Monday. 2400. Longest yet.

I've done a lot of research in regard to my health. I'm going to make some changes to my diet to help avoid further illness. I'm coming to terms with it. Nothing else I can do. It just means I've got to start cutting out the peanut butter :( But, dairy is going to play more of a role...ice cream? :)

I had a big moment yesterday. I was tired and hungry when I got to my dad’s…and it was humid, but the breeze was blowing a bit so it didn’t feel horrible. I decided to go for a run. And take it EASY! I did. Got to the first mile in 7:50. Concentrated on easy…and kept going, to an area I’d never been before. I got back just as the lightning and thunder kicked in...and the rain poured down.

Coach had called on Monday and told me he completely understood how hard it would’ve been to watch TTT. He asked if I wanted a plan for the week, but he did advise that I simply get out and do what I WANT to do, not what I feel like I NEED to do. I took that approach yesterday and I was able to be grateful for where I am right now instead getting pissed about where I was and where I should be. This attitude only comes in glimpses, but I’m glad it comes at all.